On Oct 23, 2005 my life was changed forever. This is the day I accepted Jesus into my life and God started taking me on this journey of healing. You see I was sexually abused as a teenager by a close relative and that left me with some deeply embedded scares. These scares were so embedded that they molded me into the person I had become fearful, insecure, and to an extent anti-social. I struggled with feeling guilt and shame but along came God and in one of my many quiet times he said "It is OK it is not your fault, you need to let it go and know that your "PAST WILL NO LONGER DICTATE YOUR FUTURE I WILL" Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." At that point I cried it took me a while to stop but, it was then and there that I realized that I had been given a new life a second chance. God has had to pull off many of my scabs in order for them to heal right and if they do not heal right he will pull them off again and I know that in that moment it hurts but when he is done healing my wound it no longer hurts it not longer has any affect in my life. As humans we all have deep scares and God has the desire to heal us from them but we have to allow him to do so and YES it will hurt but healing will come from the pain and growth. Until this very day I believe that God dictates my path and who I am and I still face struggles and pains but nothing compared to the pain I had experienced in the past. I am nothing like the girl I was five years ago I am becoming more like the women God intended me to be, no I am not perfect I am a work in progress and when I stumble God picks me up and hugs me and says it OK so long as you allow me to continue to do my work in you so long as you allow ME (GOD) to continue and transform you. I thank you my Lord for my SECOND CHANCE I THANK YOU OH LORD FOR BEING LOVING AND MERCIFUL AND BEING MY ABBA AND FOR THE TRANSFORMATION YOU HAVE BROUGHT INTO MY LIFE!
